This past Mother's Day was a unique one for me. The beautiful lily plant in front of my home (a gift from two close friends) is a reminder of last Mother's Day, when I stayed home from church and wept over my recent miscarriage. I feared that I'd never again experience the joy of a precious life growing inside of me. This year my arms were filled with a new little miracle, Papoose. This delightful little boy has brought so much joy to our home.
Our pastor recently shared a quote that has given me so much comfort and reassurance that God truly has a merciful purpose for the lives of children we have lost. This was taken from the writings of Thomas Boston, a Puritan minister who lost several children in infancy.
"This day we spent some time in family humiliation and prayer, on the
account of the death of our youngest child Katherine... That child
was very comfortable to me; but I bless Him I was helped to part with
her; and saw and believed much of the Lord's goodness in that
dispensation... I never had such a clear and comfortable view of the
Lord's having other use for children than our comfort; for which ends
he removes them in infancy; so that they are not brought to the world
in vain. I saw reason to bless the Lord, that I had been made father
of six children, now in the grave, and that were with me but a very
short time; but none of them lost; I will see them all at the
resurrection. That clause in the covenant, 'And the God of thy seed'
was sweet and full of sap.'"
"I have heard it said that having a child is like having your heart walk around outside of your body (Eldredge)." Anyone who has brought a little one into this world knows exactly what I'm referring to.
My life is so rich with emotion - with passion and joy and little heartaches. My children live and love with such honest intensity. I am deeply honored to be the object of so much of their affection...
Sis and Buddy put so much thought into making the perfect Mother's Day for me. Sis found a mailed advertisement from a local jewlery store and hid it away so she could choose something pretty for her mom. Unfortunately, she misread the prices, thinking that they were in the ballpark of $6 instead of $600. Her face fell when she realized that she wouldn't be able to buy what she had chosen. Stephen came to the rescue and brought the kids out shopping. Sis chose a gorgeous Mother's Day necklace which I will treasure forever. Buddy too had some special plans. I found out that he had been nogotiating with a friend to sell his rubber snake for a startling profit so he could shop for me. I gently put a stop to the transaction, and he and Daddy chose a beautiful ice cream cake for me instead. We enjoyed such a special day together. Surrounded by these precious little ones and a loving husband, I am deeply grateful for the blessings in my life.
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